I used to believe things were going to work out. for the short time we've been together, i've been showering you with my love, supported you emotionally, trying to give you the best that i could.
I even treated you better than my ex boyfriend,the guy whom i really really did like so much.

There were many things about you I disliked at the beginning. Your attitude,i totally disliked the way you portray yourself, the way you talked, tactless and it offends people. Your temper, it pisses me off totally. But becaused i liked you, i stuck with you, believing that things would change someday.I stayed by your side, not a single time did i ever strayed or laid my eyes on some other guy. I soon put the dislikes all behind me, and everytime i looked at you, I saw you as a perfect person.

Yes, you may be a "good boyfriend" doing things that is very pleasing to the eyes. What i call the superficial things that could be done easily, anyone can do it just by putting in a lil effort. Things like picking me up from places, buying gifts, showing concern.But what you missed out, the most important thing in a relationship. Is the emotional support. For a long period of time, i felt that you've been putting me down with everything i did. I tolerated it, and always gave in to you. Doing things your way, if you didnt like something, i'd change it . It was all about you you and you.
"You don't like this way, you don't like me to look this way, you don't like me to act this way,don't like me to dress this way, don't like me to talk this way, don't like me to do things this way", and i want you to change change change.
It all seemed right, because i was blinded by love, forgetting about myself, giving up the things i wanted, changing my ways.
Losing weight for you, changing my mindset for you.
Yes, I swear i didnt mind doing anything and everything for you.
So what have you given me? Support? no. you still critised me for everything. Not showing any encouragement, just pure disappointment in anything i couldnt do it right, the way you want it to be.
Emotional turmoil i've been through, I've lost my confidence, lost my self esteem, lost my backbone, lost my will and determination.
You've made me lose this all.

Yes, I may not be perfect, but you're not perfect either, you pretty much as flawed as me.
But i chose to ignore it, why cant you?

I've been giving in, so much so that you've climbed all over me, over my head and now you look down on me, despise me,well, this is how i feel.

Have you ever thought bout your actions that will affect people? you always talk to me about that. But have you considered bout your actions and words that would affect me?
No, because it was all about you, not me, because I am flawed and i have to be perfect, perfect for you.

You claimed that you love me, thousand and one times, but actions speak louder than words.
And your actions and your words showed otherwise.

Your friends don't know how to get through to you, and so do I, they asked me to think for my happiness, but time and again, i chose to be with you. Not heeding all the advises.

You've sucked my emotions and energy dry, i have none left for you anymore. For a long long time.

You've been asking me to try and work things out with you again. to give it another shot..

And yet again, i'll still give you the same answer, " i will never want to be with you again, not now. not in the future. NEVER"



left her thoughts ♥ 11:45:00 AM

Human beings are complicated by nature and I wouldn't deny that.
You wouldn't believe my profession. But I have a strong passion for what I do.
I'm not a great dancer but dancing its one of my only burning passion in life that keeps me going. =)

A petite girl who loves to socialise and have tons of fun!
I'm patient but don't try to test the limits.
Well,as long as you are not a weirdo,you're most welcomed to join my social circle.
*cheerios!!